Everything is a bit overwhelming right now. Today is my final day of the prep phase of S4L and I am down to 247. I am very happy about that! I also attended my nutrition class today, which is basically the introduction to the weight loss phase of the program. Enter the anxiety and overwhelming feelings. This program is strict…and will require A LOT of planning on my part due to my crazy schedule. I know it will get easier and I know this isn’t going to be easy. I am up for the challenge, but it has definitely been a ‘few hours at a time’ kind of day. I have tomorrow’s meals planned and I will be asking for advice on how to simplify things when I go in tomorrow as well. I will get through this….I HAVE TO!!!!
On an another note, my amazingly awesome friend Katie game me a shit-ton of S4L supplements that she didn’t use. She told me she had some stuff at home and not to buy anything until she brought it to me. I figured it would be a bag or two of supplements. Ummm….no. It’s a bag and two big boxes packed FULL of stuff. I can’t even tell you how much money she is saving me…and how much relief I feel knowing that I will be able to keep up with all the supplements now (they are pricey!). I have no clue how I am going to repay her…but I will figure something out. I have some ideas, but since she is a new stalker of my blog, I can’t post them here. I LOVE YOU KATIE!!!!
This isn’t only a physical journey that I am on…it is mental as well. That being said, I changed someone’s name in my phone tonight to ‘NOT WORTH IT’. It’s going to be difficult, but I have to distance myself from this person for my own sake. I will always be there for him as a friend…that’s just the person I am. I have to draw the line somewhere, though. I let myself get emotionally attached and well, that wasn’t supposed to happen. As unintentional as I hope it was, he hurt me. I am not going into the details…that’s between us. I will be a cautious friend, but the chase is over.
Whew! I feel better already!!
